bullied.

So my OMSA mama said this to me a long time ago: you are getting bullied in your own house and you should not allow that. I kinda brushed it off and now im starting to realize what she exactly meant. I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. Like I basically need to grow a pair of balls and speak up for myself. But then I feel like its a lost battle whenever I do. Ughhh I am just frustrated and I really would like God to show me the right direction. I feel much better today after talking with my cuzzo about the past, present and future. I just love that girl because she understands me and the struggle of being a daughter of Jamaican parents. It's tough life. Lol.

♥ A.Erika ♥ 

fresh off my trip.

Holas. I haven't shared what's been going lately, partly because I have been holding back on some entries because I wasn't sure how to get my point across. But I have just decided, its my blog and I can what I want to say. So imma just sayyyyyy it...sayyyyy it *humming ne-yo*

I just got back from a 10 day trip to see the BF. What started off as a surprise weekend trip turned into a planned 10 day trip with my boobie. Still lowkey upset he ruined the surprise. The day was finally here and I got so nervous. After all, it had been 4 months since our last meeting. And even though we talk every day, its different seeing each other in person. Of course that nervousness wore off as soon as I saw him. :-) I had a good time being on campus with no obligations. It was so funny seeing ppl because they had no idea I was coming so the reaction was like I can't believe ur here or my favorite was what are u doing here. As if I wasn't allowed back. Oh the kicker was ppl didn't know me and the bf were dating so that response was priceless as well.

Now I told myself, I was gonna hold my tears until after he dropped me off. Ehhh not so much. I shed about 3...yes just 3 tears leaving troy. Then we pulled up to my uncles house. He gave me this look and the tears started again...flowing like a river. After I finally got myself together, we said our last 'see-you-laters' and he was off. The feeling of uncertainty of when I'll see him next is what hurts me everytime. This cross country relationship is tough but its soo worth it.

I've postponed my three sixty five project because I wasn't as committed as I should have been. So I'm starting fresh on the 23rd. Maybe the BF will help me with ideas since he's a budding photographer.

I have decided to stay at my internship until I find a full time. Rather than just chill and wait, I might as well keep up my skills and continue to network. They even offered to help me with my web portfolio so I want to take advantage of that resource while its available. I might have an opportunity with Americorps. A new friend I met at the career fair I went to back in october has been really supportive and shared this opportunity with me. So I'm praying that this comes through because it will help jump start my philanthropic socialite lifestyle.

And that life thus far. I have more to write but i need sleep.

♥ A.Erika ♥ 

music, design and type.

I'm trying to do an aesthetically pleasing post at least once a month. Im often amazed at what designers can do..how they can take a concept and visually illustrate it. music, design, type. some of my favorite things...imagine all together...LOVE. I came across a video that utilized type and music. Typography is my favorite element of design...it can make or break a design. Im pretty good at memorizing typefaces too...yea imma type freak [as the BF says] but dont judge me. Anyways,  I loved  how the deisgner incorporate TYPE with different images of Brooklyn. The type was kerned and lead to my liking. Type + jay-z feat weezy = hello brooklyn starring one of my favorite typefaces, Akzidenz Grotesk, and the architecture of Brooklyn. Watch it here---> http://vimeo.com/10089801
Enjoy my loves!

♥ A.Erika ♥

commercial debut.

hey hey hey my loves!! This past month has been interesting...I went from just having an internship to having a total of 3 jobs. At first, I was overwhelmed at possibly working every day but I had to quickly reminded myself its what I had been praying for since july. Now that I have an income, I can fully divulge my attention to a full time search. I'm actually going to a sports and entertainment career fair on Thursday. All the major and minor sports teams in Atlanta will be there along with a couple of marketing firms. I was a little reserve about paying but my BFF said I really had nothing to lose so I am hoping to make some contacts and eventually get a job.

So last month I shot a commercial for the hospital's monthly campaign with Atlanta Health Experts. I played a cancer patient like timmy. [inside joke...LOL]. I didnt think I would make the cut but to my surprise last week I found out I had made my debut. A lady in the lunchroom said she saw me on TV. I was so confused, nervous even. But mama lindo has to remind me of my cameo. Since then people have called my mom ecstatic saying how happy they were to see me on TV. Its ironic that I have yet to see the commercial on TV. These past couple nights I have been exhausted and although the intent to try to see myself was there, I am still unsuccessful. I hope to see it soon. For those who dont live in atlanta, here you go. Enjoy!! =)


♥ A.Erika ♥

puts things into perspective.

saw another piece that i like. maybe sundays will be aesthetically pleasing day. and i got a PT job. YAY for income! :) orientation on tuesday, updates then.

♥ A.Erika ♥ 

manifesto

i havent done an aesthetically pleasing post in a while. i felt this is a way to bring this series back. how we should all live our lives. i need to get this printed and put on my wall for work!

♥ A.Erika ♥ 

mission statement.

A girl was just a lil emotional wednesday night. Today is a new day and im much better.Thats the thing about life...it has its ups and downs. And im learning that its ok to be down because it wont last always and it makes you appreciate high.

today i went to the crowned jewels [women's ministry] breakfast and as we signed in, we got a worksheet and it said "reaching you highest potential in hard times". I was like after the emotional week i've had, i def need this in my life. the speaker, Dr. Cage, spoke about the 5 P's: purpose, present, posture, plan, people. Im like wooo Lord you are tryna teach me something today. When she discussed plan, she said we need to develop a mission statement. Mission statement for companies are the ideals in which a companies is founded. It states the purpose of the company and helps to guide them when the get off track.

I then thought maybe this is what my life is missing...a mission statement. A statement that will state what i would like my legacy to be and serve as reference guide to the decisions I make. Everytime I make a decision, i should question it saying do this line up with my mission statement. Something that will keep me focused! So I know I talk alot about doing something and nvr quite finish but this is imperative that i complete. Maybe tomorrow since some of the major distractions will be gone.

this post is definitely more positive than the last one!

continue to live your life and one day we'll run this town...love my booskie! one of the greatest big bros a girl could ask for! :-)


♥ A.Erika ♥