Quarter of a Century + 1

Today is my birthday. Shoutout to fellow Tauruses! Lol. Birthdays have been difficult for me to celebrate because something always gets in the way of my celebration. Almost every year I compete with Mother's Day, then when I was in college, my birthday conflicted with finals. All of these conflicts caused me to avoid celebrating. But I decided last year I would celebrate in some way or fashion. My birthday is also an reflective time for me. Much like New Year's is the beginning of a journey, my birthday serves as my New Years. I get to look back within the last year and see how much I've grown and what has transpired. This time last year, I had extended my birthday campaign to May 31 and I was hosting this big dinner for myself and some of my closest friends. I was so nervous, even though about canceling it because I thought nobody would show up. It happened and I had a wonderful time plus I was able to raise over $1000 for autism. I actually has a post written about my birthday last year but I never posted it. I gotta stop doing that. I have 3 or 4 posts in drafts that need to be posted. Sigh. 

So 26, huh? How do you feel, you may ask? Can I be honest? I feel lost. At times. Like am I doing things right? How do I transition in this new role as a wife? How do I communicate in a calm manner that I am frustrated rather than spaz out on my babes? Why is God making me struggle? In those moments of being lost, I'm reminded to focus less on being lost and more about progress. Even though I focus on the how, God just says trust me, I got you boo. I'm learning to let go of control knowing where to go because God ultimately knows where I should go. After all, His plan is better than mine will ever be. Along with trusting God, less thoughts and talking and more doing. I know God's got me but I have to do my part. Faith without works is dead. One of my favorite entrepreneurs said, You have to DO in order to BE. I am still soul searching for my goals for my 26th year but once I set them, I'll share! 25 was by far the best EVER! And I know 26 has much to offer! ;)

♥ A.Erika ♥

twenty three years young.

My birthday was this past weekend and it was lowkey just like I wanted. Plus it was my first birthday home in 4 years during mother's day weekend so I already knew my bday celebration was gonna be with family. Fun ashlee fact: I was ALMOST a mother's day baby. My mom continues to remind me that I missed getting a cabbage patch doll by a couple hours. Apparently all children born on mother's day receive a cabbage patch doll. *shrugs*

first friday with chi. :)

Pre bday celebration began with shopping for outfits for the weekend. Then tackled the hair removal with threading and waxing. Has anyone had their armpits waxed? Good gawd!  My mom had to hold my hand. Lol. Good thing it lasts long cuz I couldn't see putting myself through the pain every 2 weeks which is about as often as I shave. I went out to first fridays and  biz markie was there, looking like a cow whilst he was chewing his gum. No shots. Loved the venue. People kill me in atlanta, its like they act like they too cute/cool to dance. Smh. Saturday [My actual birthday] mama lindo and I went to the spa and enjoyed a nice pedicure. My feet feel as soft as a baby's bottom. Then I went to my old choregrapher's production. Like always, I'm inspired to dance again. Its been 3 years since taking a GOOD class. I miss the stage. I miss being able to express myself thru intricate movements. I miss being able to be sore from dancing all day at the studio. I just miss it all. So I been looking for some classes for the summer. I wanna get those feelings back.

I felt so loved with all the calls, txts/bbms, tweets, and fb posts. Even the fb post from HIM. After 8 months of being in a relationship, then 4 wks of not speaking, a fb post TRULY shows you love someone. Anywho, I really appreciate those who did reach out. Yall are great!!! :)

hello 23!

Mothers day proved to be one of the best in a while, as told by mama lindo. I'd like to think because I graced her with my presence this year. Lol. Nah it was a great family day with many laughs. Even my big bro came out with us. Sad the weekend is over and its back to the grind of job searching. Oh Lord when is it gonna be my turn....yet I'm thankful for where I am. Not tryna seem ungrateful but I'm oh so ready.

Until next time my loves,


♥ A.Erika ♥